Sunday, December 17, 2006
sorry for everything.. sorry to trouble u.. sorry abt everything......
end of story...
will there be story of us again?
l0ve `n live fer eu__]* 10:13 PM
Sunday, January 22, 2006
everything seem so .. i dunno how to say.. the words u say.. the things u did.. so cold.. i know u dun wish to go sch.. but i dun want u get debar from exam.. u asked me to go home.. i dun want to.. so cold.. very cold.. i know u are stress up.. i know i cant hong u.. i felt totally .. cold.. dripped some tears.. or maybe lik wad u say.. i shld nt get too much into it. too serious.. maybe i am..
ilu
l0ve `n live fer eu__]* 9:22 PM
Thursday, August 18, 2005
dear.. pls giv me a chance.. i promise i wont giv u any disappointment.
just this once?.. i cant slp.. thinking of u all night..pls dear..i sorry..
turnin away from?.. i just dun wish to lose u again..
i know i giv u disappointment time n time again.. pls..
for now.. i wont let it happen.. i really need u.. heartbreaking..
i did scare of slpping at night eversince something happen
use to put a radio on my bed.. it batt is flat.. in e middle of
e night it switch on.. freak me out. n e station is indian.. i
didnt touch the radio.. in e mornin i switch on.. it flat lorh..
l0ve `n live fer eu__]* 11:04 PM
sighs ..
i know whatever i say aint any use.
i did change alot eversince i met u
when u are sick , i wish i will be there beside u to take care of you
when u are moody, i wish i will be the one to share it with u
or maybe we aint to be together?.. but so what. it doesnt matter to me
or maybe we dont even understand each other. but i dont mind. cause i willing to understand u
can u feel my heart breaking up. doubt so
can u feel that i love u
can u feel that i willing to do watever it take to meet ur expectation.
it my fault for not really get into ur expectation.
ya i did promise. i cant change over time..
but u are important in my life. without u. i really dunno what will happen to me.
dont u love me?
dont u want me?
suddenly i feel so lonely without u.
do u know that?.. doubt so. maybe u wont be even lookin here?
i really hope to be e one huggin u all night when u are cold.
or was it we are livin in a world of our own. it not all the time i can be there for u
i dont even mind spentin my time with u
u always brighten up my days.
this few days, i dont really have e intention to eat. i duno why i dont feel hungry
skip many meals. everyday a meal. my slpping time aint regular.. sooner or later i need to
change back. i really still miss u.. do u?.. maybe not..
what i say.. i didnt fulfil. i sorry..
all that bloggin in tat person blog.. i sorry.. i was really piss of by that.. i did feel turn off.. but i
try not to.. and i did.. cause i really cant bear to leave........ cause i maybe i love u way alot.. can u
feel that??.. i a person who hardly show emotion.. seldom smile one..
love is all abt lovin e way of who they are...
true love is all abt e person who u miss n love n wanted to let e person be by ur side.
well.. after my sec sch days already affectted me alot in life. i didnt really hav any one to talk to.
eversince i become cold . i dunno where all my self went to. e result of "N" really give me a large blow.
noone understand.. i dun wish to say abt my exams stuff ba.. i always make ppl worried.. make ppl angry..
life isnt good as u think
tml oral.. i dunno if i shld go or nt.. i dun feel lik studyin o lvl.. 2:15 oral start. sucks.. i did feel stress.
exams exams.. really drive me to one side.. studies.. i dunno if i can cope. many stuff yet to be learn.
hope u are reading?..
listen to your heart.
celebrate the Summer,dive into the Sea,celebrate the feeling,you and me
l0ve `n live fer eu__]* 6:53 PM
Sunday, July 03, 2005
today...will it be the last meeting?.. i really dun wish tat to happen..cryin badly while writin this entry.. cry badly.. how much i wanted u to be my.. why must everythin be lik this.. i dun even want tat to happen.. why my mom must be lik this..i didnt even tok to her... wad the lorh.. hais..i feel very wad.. i will be single.. i will be waitin for the time to be with u.. wad i promise u..i will do it.. my hand hurts durin writin all this words.. so as my heart.. i feel very upset... lock myself in the room.. deeply cryin.. cryin out loud.. just talkin to the blog.. seein the sms u used to send.. seein the pics i took on u.. i feel lik vomiting... eated two panadol.. i dun feel lik slppin.. cant slp.. so do u.. i feel lik faintin.. darkness cover me.. it very painful to know tat ur mom did all this lies to spoil e r/s with the person u love.... so many memories of u n me.. was very happy tat i stead with u.. b4 u..i seldom smile again.. my heart ache... i hatin everything.. everythin all kept down inside me..who to turn too... for now i really dun wish to see anyone.. even my mom.. when she open the door with keys..i scold her to go out.. ha ha ha ha.. wad a joke........ i know how u feel..... i know.. u now even feel more xinku.. i sorri.... damns.. i really feel lik vomittin .. heart pain.. chest pain.. everythin pains.. hand pain.. head pain.. everythin is my fault ba.. i will nv push anythin to u.. i really hope to b with u.. i really hope.. it u i want..
bendan love silly
l0ve `n live fer eu__]* 3:40 AM
Friday, July 01, 2005
bleahs bleah bleahs.. havin fever.. so shiverish.. eeks... bth... cant fall aslp lorh.. sighs.. eat one panadol le.. ok lar.. gteffect already..fever cool down..tired... didnt really slp the whole night... coz keep movin about.. lolx.. silly now havin lesson... dar called me b4 that.. was on my bed.. :\ .. cant slp.. coughin away... readed e blogg.. kinda dunno wad else to say ba.. so fast june holiday pass.. wow.. sighs.. goin to hav my oral soon..haha.. dunno le.. nv been studyin this few mths.. kinda slack out.... shags... i miss out alot stuff... lolx.. nv been to lesson.. eek.. so far lorh.. sighs... wasted money.. lolx.. ur image keep appearing inside my mind..
l0ve `n live fer eu__]* 11:25 AM
Thursday, June 23, 2005
dunno why i felt jealously after readin a blog.. sighs... seein the way the person writes... fuckin green.. saw some woordss.. green.. becoz i love u .. four days nv see u.. very frustrated... head hurts.. hand pains.. really dunno wad am i thinking.. head still spinnin as i write this blog.. now gt super star.. sighs.. boring.. i know... it sooner or later ...but.. but.... ilu
l0ve `n live fer eu__]* 8:40 PM
u say u respect the decision i make.. yes i cant bear .. i bu she de.. hav a big quarrel jus now.. cry deeply.. did feel likrunnin away fromhome.. outout.. verynumb.. life suddenly meaningless to me.. really if u all want me jump.. i will.. enough depress.. know even i jump wont end problems.. smk alot just now.. head hurts.. gt abump.. many things happen ok.. very tired of everything.. yea..i go out with silly...cannot is it.. nneeed to scold big shot?.. kaos... fark off .. mom... u aso dunno how i feel.. do u understand anything.. r/s can be anything .. love someone is nt a wrong.. i lead my life.. i dun lik to be control.. eventhere freedom.. really wish to be alone.. why just cant uall leave mealone to cryout.. think i dunno u allwas there still even i ask uall to go off.. wad.. small problem..becomebig problem?.. happy liao nt?.. wantme runaway fromhome is it..i reallywillok... maybe nteven comin home ever... r/s hav up n downs too.. u think stead with guy will happy aso mahs?...i think both abt the same?.. ah ya.u just dun understand.. wad guys want?.. sex?.. huhs.. nt love?.. huhs.. i just want love...
i really enjoy the time n moments being with u..silly dear.. i really love u alot.. sighs..
l0ve `n live fer eu__]* 2:40 AM
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
miss u alot alot alot.. pig pig u..so miss u.. pigggyyy... lookin ard friendster... :\ .. haha.. nth better to do..so i blog..blog... on the 19.. went to grandma birthday.. damn.. the food was groosss.. eee..haha.. saw my cousins...wooo... fiona.. -.-" .. haha.. n etc..lala.. very long no see them..haha.. all so dao de... dao back lar..:\ .. so boring dinner..each yr aso same... damn..chinese new yr aso... damn larhs... food le..eat liao.. nxt day lao sai.. wad the lorh...stupid green color food..yucks... pui...
i miss the voice when u speak..
i miss the way u walk
i miss the time we spent..
so fast time fly again.. haha..4th!
soon aso xueshuang birthday..on fri..haha.. same day as me.. 24.. :\ .. but different mth.. 5 yrs friend!!.. wow.. :\ ... sad sial..she always play maplesea...dots..
silly i sorry abt the few days ba.. guess pms...but just to tell u.. u meant alot to me :) .. maybe i nt very gd in speakin n makin someone i love laugh.. i a lousy stead aint i?.. haha.. really wanna hug u in my arms every night n day..just u n me.. haha.. well.. sometime cant even see u.. but u will always occupy my mind.. now le..nt eeverytime can see u.. ur exams are near..studyhard.. :) .. will be there for u.. silly pig..
l0ve `n live fer eu__]* 9:42 PM
