Sunday, July 03, 2005
today...will it be the last meeting?.. i really dun wish tat to happen..cryin badly while writin this entry.. cry badly.. how much i wanted u to be my.. why must everythin be lik this.. i dun even want tat to happen.. why my mom must be lik this..i didnt even tok to her... wad the lorh.. hais..i feel very wad.. i will be single.. i will be waitin for the time to be with u.. wad i promise u..i will do it.. my hand hurts durin writin all this words.. so as my heart.. i feel very upset... lock myself in the room.. deeply cryin.. cryin out loud.. just talkin to the blog.. seein the sms u used to send.. seein the pics i took on u.. i feel lik vomiting... eated two panadol.. i dun feel lik slppin.. cant slp.. so do u.. i feel lik faintin.. darkness cover me.. it very painful to know tat ur mom did all this lies to spoil e r/s with the person u love.... so many memories of u n me.. was very happy tat i stead with u.. b4 u..i seldom smile again.. my heart ache... i hatin everything.. everythin all kept down inside me..who to turn too... for now i really dun wish to see anyone.. even my mom.. when she open the door with keys..i scold her to go out.. ha ha ha ha.. wad a joke........ i know how u feel..... i know.. u now even feel more xinku.. i sorri.... damns.. i really feel lik vomittin .. heart pain.. chest pain.. everythin pains.. hand pain.. head pain.. everythin is my fault ba.. i will nv push anythin to u.. i really hope to b with u.. i really hope.. it u i want..
bendan love silly
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